Wednesday, November 26, 2008

end of November..beginning of December

26th Nov

The month nearly end. only left around 4days,i guess to close the month of November. Hasth you think back what have u done past days ago?? i've been holidaying around two weeks already. Month od December coming up and thats not really a joyous day even Xmas is around the corner. coz i havent done my imporatant task.. collect data for FYP.

Its serious work that MUST do as next Semester will open up rite after the celebration. Where got the time and guts for all this? Im afraid finding respondents beacause its should be very professional as i am human resource's student and the questionnaires is pro as well to collect accurate data.

Phew!! not an easy job as i chose wrong type of data collection actually as written in the report. But,things easier if the respondents is large at one place and i won't be bother to find hard. i should be brave enough to speak.. Hopefully,i'll try 3rd party help sooner.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Present for fren

14:31

like the title says.. choosing presents for frens... for birthday.. anything good and realistic to give out?? I've no idea this time..

her b'day tis coming Monday.. why so early thinking of it?? well, coz.. we're staying at the hostel.. where got time to go out and buy presents?? Is it?? Yea... So... im the selected person coz did down to town almost every weekend. (no need to be sorry with me). hahah....

the deal has made.. the present is.... sigh... secret lar.. if i told now, no more surprise.. hehe...

It's proven!

15th Oct

don't get me wrong.. its really proven that it's one month activity to update the blog..
nothing wrong to say.. hahah..

oaky, start from my presentation... its worst and good. Worst coz im the first person for the morning session. and good thing became the 1st one either.. Tell u good experience it is.. Yeah.. i bet no one could be that lucky as me.

i been evaluated by lecturer, but others after me being questioned by the dean. how powerful he is and the words that come out from his mind. Imagine when u being asked by the prime minister in front lots of the senate.. so horrible,i think. So, bravo to them. can be so stable answering the ques. if im at their stage, i think i will cry.. 'coz like being beat and scold for doin wrong thing.

So,mix everything up... time to do correction based upon the comments given. My supervisor are on leave and only be available by 24th. So, it's time to do it and ready for him to mark the draft before final hands up by 27th to be grading room. SO BAD WHEN THINKING OF IT..

I feel my works not that powerful and less value-added. That's make the research not so good to have A. but,pls lar... make me at least above the pass level. but, the theses... u know, not easy stuff. Read.. read.. and read more more journal research are needed. and fall unto lazy gal like me.. Well, sorry to say.. any grade receive shld be thankful, i guess.

Monday, September 15, 2008

once a month

15th Sept

suddenly realise i already so long didnt update this blog. like everyone say, Arh.. busy,lar..
its like once a month activities. but, i could not recall what had i go thru this month. maybe keep busy with the fyp= final year project. but i don think i do coz many problem occur within the progress. now, ask me to hand out wat? i really no idea.

today is my mother birthday. same age with Malaysia. Wish her healthy always and celebrate birthday till 100 years old. God may bless her even I din go to church (God,4give me).

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

sometime it happen

06/08/08

i don know when it happen, how it can be happen and why it shall happen to me.

every thing out prediction and its not my fault to be blame if it's happen. What happen?

just myself feel the hardest to breathe.. i live under other people expectations and should follow their rule! I wish to step out this hole and be myself but "someone" may say im betraying the relationship. Sahll i make their life miserable or my own worse ever than previously??

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

1st July

Today is the 1st day of July. Day is bright and as clear like my feeling. Only my hands are as cold as ice coz the aircond here extremely high and not under control which u choose ON or OFF only as the option. Everyone that almost ending their industrial training,i believe are counting the days to leave the company. only for those doing their LI at their hometown will feel sad coz they gonna leave their family to study for anther last year.

Well,for me,its nthg big deal. coz im practical at bintulu, where i got my sista here. Then i will travel bec to kuching to cont my studies where got my other family members waiting. Wawaa.. quite miss them coz about 1 month I din meet and talk with them. But, no longer after I bec, I have to going reg myself at the college the day after that. Huhu.. Not so best,lar.. coz no free holiday for us like Poli student. But, they more pity coz nid practical for 6 months long.

Report and PTA.. which come 1st? ofcz the report coz have to send within 7 days after finish this training. PTA is whole semster project. and can do when starting the semester later on. but,the feeling to starting off both assignment not an easy tasks as my personal problems which doing things at the last minutes. cannot change this habit, though. Uhh... Have to overcome this!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, June 30, 2008

why its so hard to answer?

30th June

Answers me! That's ppl demanding from me. They want to know the ans from my mouth.

What u want me ans exactly? if I don know the ans, should I tell the lie? I won't do so to satisfy u,okay? Ya.. this happen. A so-so called fren ask my confirmation about someone. I'll tell u. I really don care much about this person. But her ques reallt heart-striking. Mostly asking something that really unrelated with me. Im just the third person that may know the ans.

I don wish to know,really. but, after she knew the person, i think she will keep telling me about the coincidence she had with them. Pls,I don want to know. I don care what they do mostly and what happen to them. I hate them,really.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

last week left..

26th June

next week is the last week for my training.. A little sort of happy and sad.
Happy coz finally the day is over. I can reunion with family again and start the new leaf with
friends.. Sad 'cause I had to leave the place with the memory left far behind. And sad cause IM NOT GOING TO HAVE TIME TO ENJOY the days of free anymore. Bulks of assignment(will follow up when its time,not rite after start the SEM). But, sad coz my pointer drops and hard to increase it anymore as this 2008/09 is going to be my last year studying.

Proceed study? where come the money? No.. everyone having empty purse. Neither do I afford to pay simple things like school fee this SEM. Aiyo... what gonna be? Why money cannot always flow like the river and slip into my pocket? haha.. That's why rich people always love their money. haha.. and don like share it with others.

with rm9 can survive for 1 week? i think so as I no nid to spend much. only cannot buy what you want. But, can spend on what u need. eg: foods. hehe... Money,oh MONEY. . Pls come to my life very soon. but din work, where come the money???

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

about a month already

4 June 2008

i din update my blog and sorry for that. well, for info, im having my internship of practical training at somewhere bintulu called BINTULU PORT SDN.BHD. i cant tell much about it. but, if those interested can surf the net to find it. btw, i've been here a month ago starting 5th May. till 4th July. that's means got 1 month to go. After this training done, shall come out with a report. im still blur on what to write about. then, will start another new semester and i gotta to conduct a motivational camp for my course junior by 10th-13th July.


busy week at the beginning month of July. hope my aim can succeed before the end of 2008.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

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2th April
From the time i step in at 1.30pm, i feel something bad gonna be happen.
the meeting is about ought to be camp motivation. that's suppose will be organized by this weekend. Actually, this camp itself have lot of problem. i can say its non-stop happening. from the level of top management until amongst ourselves. Then, around 1.40pm, the lecturer/co-ordinator in charge for this camp announced to us thet,"there's only two alternative for this camp to be success. Either,proceed the camp with one day one night or postponed the camp to the next semester.


We all think why this time they say different again?? This camp had posponed for the third time. if this again, means for fourth time. What the top management take us as? we're not as u like take it as u want. We're have put much the effort fully in this. i can say, im not much contributed as others in this camp. i know i din play my part well. but those din agree on this cant have their words heard,why? From the first time i see how rigid this camp are. ppl don perceive it well and see this matter as simple. reject whenever they want.


Im really defend to this. why should make this things out if the reality is they cnt do anything at al? as they say, "i've tried to help out with the sponsorship, but always forget to contact that person". i tell u, if they really concern about this matter, they wont say it only without action. give so much bullshit reason is no use at all. Like just know, the voting result for proceed the camp actually most over majority. But, i wish the "person" din say much. but he did anyway.


He try to influence the mind of all of us. keep persuade us that postponed the camp will give u more time to prepare and do better camp that not only costRM50 but over thousand style. I wish can say that this not the money problem. its what ahd done over the period almost semester to organized it, booking the place, the transport, the confirmation trainees...last important is the effort what had give. At last, there's second voting going on. This time, they switched. majority agreed to postpone the camp to next semester. Gosh!

Actually, ther's pros and cons of proceeding or postponing these stuff. maybe they take the cons of the proceed more and pros of postponed more. who knows, anyway? i don want to say more here. ppl will say me later on. but, i do feel sad for those things happen in the last minutes. heartful feeling, no one really understand.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

my current update

1st April
today is April Fool's Day. but im not fooling you guys. this really my latest update after almost 1 month din blog in. as i did mention last time, i got another account. so, i din have time to update both in time. considering that someone may like to view my update, so i post a new one today.

last february, i talk about my application for industrail training. now i got it. and its the newest application that i made after the long wait of no answer of my preferable company. anyway, its the best company beside that one. im grateful either as got a friend thta intro me in, actually. so, both of us will go to that company by 5th May to start the training which last for 9weeks.

another is about winning as February Blogegr's of The Month for mtvasiablog. sounds never easy to win until i obtain that post. its nice to be alert. so, i'll keep updating my blog... thanks those voting me! lastly, recently many things happen. 'they' din stop making messy and trouble. i feel suffocated. breathing difficulty,i can say. 'They' doin it by their own and taking all the power to judge and direct people. Got a guy that used his "sweet talk" to sweeten some girls and make them melt to take everything that he said is true and believable. don you feel it's ridiculous? they have thinking but they prefer being cheated. im not that stupid. so, im at rejecting sied. i know some people might not liking me. but, that's truth that i know and i wont let "YOU" do the same to me. NEVER,MAN! YOU WON'T SUCCEED.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

from one go to another

28th Feb
When bad things happen, it will continuously happen.
I realise that when i just fin talk about "them" yesterday, i got another shock matter arise.

how can "someone" easily end a progress of something anytime they want?
how can they decide everything by "their" own?

if they did go thru the proper planning, i dun think these sort of problem will happen and yet leaving everyone in a glow..

okay, u "ppl" decide. when and way to solve.. eventhough i wish to give a hand.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

life is so hard

27th Feb
taking and asking something from others, why it can be so hard?
wanting and obtaining something from people, why need take too much time?

i've been eagerly(can say that) waiting the answers and i
didn't get any reply either under consideration, accepteed or rejected..
"they" let me hanging. I hate this pretty much.
why " they" can treat someone like that and did not consider my feeling?

sometimes i did feel maybe coz we are begging them to accept us rather
that we are hunger for their answers. i really hope the matter can be
solved immediately. if the thgs continuous no where to be, im finish!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

why goes around again???

12th Feb
love happening again this february 14. Yea, its called V-Day, nowadays.
Single have to find companion either celebrate with single frens or family. In relationship couple may cherished their partner and florish with flowers, chocolates, candle-light dinner, gifts & suprises. but at last these all means nothg if the love yet improved. relationship nid communication. speaking nid mind refreshing. cannot speak what u like without process it first.

Title above refer to this case.:
a gal whose previously had break up with her man under one problem concern trust,faith that im not so sure about. yet, now the ex planning get back with the gal again recently.. this break up actually started by the gal herself which feel no use to hurt the guy's heart since the guy not really love her.Well, i feel thats stupid decision if the gal take back the man with her, since they unsure what they hope in a relationship.

don force if not suitable for each other.

selfish

12th Feb
people selfish is good? its shall depends on what they view from which side.. if selfish can solve the problem, why not? but im afraid if we selfish, ppl will say bad abt us.. like not open, keep for self.. alah... why bother it anyway,rite? i got secret but i keep in my heart. that so called secret, ofcoz cannot tell anyone,rite? then this not count as selfish anymore. we all have things that covered up and shall have own decision to it.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

sW33t love and l0v3 hurts..



if you dont want someone heart to be hurt, dun ever try to test it.love hurts everytime.







what's love?


love and friendship.. which come first in your mind?
which is the highest priority?



love means what to you?


but, people in love feels that they are flying high with lover's love as being cherished day by day and renew each day.

sweet and sour

24th Jan
Ppl facing ups and down in their life. they faced sweet and sours in their daily life as well.
but,how they settle the problem? did they find good solution, best alternatives or just let it go with the wind? nobody knows as they settled it with their own way. everyone facing different problems and settled it with their own way. Who am i to justice after all?

my problem yet big or serious than any other will be. i know everyone is caring to one anther and i shall not blame to any1 either. the problem creates by us. therefoe, only we know how to solve it. cannot depend to other to help us. grown up adult cannot go back to mommy's stomach again and no longer can suck milk anymore. this theory i long understand but just don want to grow up as the world outside is cruel and competitive as well as very much complicated and complex than what we can predict.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

can i say bullshit here?

23rdJan
Duh... as my situation now, i suppose can escape from presenting. not i dont want to present but i really care about my voice.Its worse and bad feeling if i present with this weird sound. so i approach my lecturer to talk this off. what he said,"NO.EVERYONE MUST PRESENT.IF NOT,THEN NO MARK.WE'LL SEE HOW TOMMOROW AS TODAY IS WEDNESDAY." oHH.. then, im starting regret see him today. Coz the presentation is tomorrow evening(3pm). its maybe my fault.

what my mind think of nw is if i more sick, then the chances i dun present is higher. just pity to myself as nid painful more one day than it should be. huhu... but, i think its impossible. why i nid to force myself..to do smth that shld't happen? Yeah.. my mind say no now.haha..

terrible feeling

22nd Jan
i bet everyone had sick at least once in their lifetime.
i also bet that no one are sick for one day only. So do I.
I've been sick from yesterday till 22nd(hvnt wrote yet). My sickness can s ay not soo serious but yet its painful. I got this cough, dry throat and nearly no voice come out when I wake up this morning. I hate it. Coz my voice rude like a man.(maybe worser than a man like). Uhh.. this feeling no one could understand as my inner body feel worse also when other sickness like headache, flu coming up togather.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

my dog


15th Jan

This my first time post pict of my dog and me myself as front page.Bt,sorry.those pict are not updated and not new anymore.I only want to show what and how i looked like and hope get ur comment to it.Leave ur email add and msg to me,ya..


Friday, January 11, 2008

what should i do?

11th Jan
human given choices to choose everything that good for them.
I slip in the middle of two choices now.to do or not to do.
coning few months,i will undergo a training based on my qualification.and this is compulsory to everyone if want to graduate.So,its no choice,is true.But,i have to make choice where to go.
In hand,i got an offer.But,in other hand,the place that i apply of yet give any comfirmation. im not sure whats should i do.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

knowing more,access more.

8th Jan.
I just create my blog in this space.but,those plaese to get know more about me,kindly visit the link above.I have create another style blog at there.maybe i can get some comment on them duh..

day one

4th Jan.
I register myself to university.Waiting turn to pay the fees before really can get myself enrolled.
So bad luck that day.Start waiting at the door from 830am till 1130am to ttake number.hopefully,its paid after the officer giving chance to take number first for 2nd round at 2.30pm.