My first Sip at 27 years old

14th MAY 2013 (11pm)

Its my birthday.. my born day.. Today, I celebrated with companion of great people.. They are the important persons in my life.. My families.. although not all present here but their presence is felt with all those blessing sent to me early morning. The choices of tonite dinner celebration is not constant as usual. My mother suggest to have seafood. I suggest to have Korean food. Big sis suggest to try out Chef at Home (served Western food) nearby area. Bro-in-law suggest Pete's Special (another western place usual eat). And youngest sis suggest the Alfresco (eating place located in line with 360 Hotel). Before it comes to make a decision of choice, we made and created a special way.. Lucky Draw officially done by my little nephew. Indeed very clever, he just choose and take it out. The draw goes to Alfresco Wine and Dine Restaurant. 

Heard of it but none of us been there. So, its a great breakthrough for a fine rating. Western food it served and most part of it suitable for drinking session as beer offered at cheap price. But we also not disappointed with the foods. Few foods receive tremendous rating such as its Sirloin Beef Steak, Spaghetti Bolognese with Giant Meatballs and recommended for those can stand for hot and spicy Alfresco's Chicken Wings.

My first sip is the Tiger Beer that my family ordered One Jug. They serve me one cup but I still cannot finish it up. As it were my birthday, give face is very important and indeed true to show ur gratitude. And, if a person held up their cup and want to have drink with u, u must drink a sip. Last last I sip 4 mouth (not full-mouth). 1st sip is very bitter, its not "spice" like most said but I just cannot bear it. Have to cover with my own drink or some food. Yeah,thats mayb my 1st sip and not so fast to have another round. Not really my choice of drink.

Slices of Blueberry Cheese and American Choc is more than enough for the celebration. Opening with the cake and end after food with it better than none. Its from Secret Recipe. And then the present giving ceremony while waiting the food to be ready served.

Thanks to my sister for giving me a set of make-up brush alongside with handmade birthday card and Handmade Bag Organizer from BebeHandmadeStore to me this birthday. Her work is awesome and marvelous. Very loved it. Much much appreciate the present. 

Interested can pm http://bebehandmadestore.blogspot.com/

And also a lucky angpao (red packet containing luck, wish and money) from my mother. Thanks also goes to my two young sister for the clutch from Calvin Klein with my favorite color (Blue). The color is real nice and not catchy design but very attractive at first sight. So, it is very match with me (they know my taste well). 

Dinner end at 10pm with my little nephew slept at his mother shoulder. Such a tiring day for him to stay awake till this hour. The time now is past 2 minutes after my Day. Now time is 1203am (15th May). 

Here my last word:

I wish to thank all of my friends that sending me great blessing through FB today and I very appreciate all those sweet thought. Birthday is not only a celebration but also remembrance of the day we born and be thankful we were still alive to celebrate another year of birthday.

Good nite everybody.

Is quitting the best solution?

I shld be more cautious on what I gave to him and not intend to causing hurt.. because am not only act as nanny but as her aunt, I should be more alert and aware everything on him. I right to be put blame. I am should be responsible. I should tell the truth that I gave the weapon to him which cause his face got long scratch scar. But I cant. I just don't dare to admit these offence to his parents. Although being questioned few times, I only confess part of the story which not all true. If I admit thats my fault, what may happen? Of coz will be "teach" and "preach" till no face to put and probably giving me "red light" to stay away from his son although he is my nephew. I know the end result.. that's y I dont have the courage at all. 

The suspected weapon causing long scar

I should aware that stuff is harmful with sharp ends even though its only a biscuit packs. Every bend counts. every corner like sharp blade. But I thought if I gave him, then he wouldn't bother me eat my own biscuit. I don't know about it until I saw long scar at his face. He no sign of cry or even scream. He just stare at me and keep rubbing his face. By then,I only realize the serious case of this. The scratch will remain until he is grown up. It is very obvious part which just right after the eye. Even use plenty of aloe Vera still cannot cover it up. 

The baby with the scar

Handsome boy with long scratch scar mark.. So pity. Sorry boy.

Only so, I have to confess to his mother that he "in hurt". Something cause this happen but I dont know". At end, she says,"next time be more careful. Dont put him in playpen if cannot watch him. If really want, get something softer for him.". I admit that's kind of stern advice as a mother. If the child only 1 year and keep knocking here there, face no longer handsome, surely parents will worried and putting the blame on someone spent most of time with their child. 

This job is high responsibility. What I teach the child will showed how will he behaved. My bad tempered maybe will "given" to him. My aggressiveness may cause more trouble coz I cannot control my emotions to get angry. Sometimes he so cute but sometime so heart stricken actions. Is it the time to quit before more accidents happen? or should I tell the parents maybe I'm not suitable with this job? Is quitting can give me relieved? 

stood in middle

25th Feb

This post shall be posted last two days as reflected on what am gonna share for the title above. But that day, too tired to put in typing but so strange..the issue still strolling around my mind. So, its important to share.

If you live a life as a doctor, what would u feel? happy coz' can treat patients? happy coz' patients recover? happy coz' successfully doing the operations? what if bad things happen.. let say, the sick person is your family members and you are required to do operations to them.. how would you be? at the stake as doctor?

I watched "Grey Anatomy Season 8 / 9" last Saturday on TV and intense part is many cases happen in the same time in that 1 hour episode. Doctors also work outstation especially the attendant (not a doctor yet) to assist out-patients from other clinic. Worse to worst is when the other clinic don't have the medical facilities. Have to be depended on what the attendant have to save life. 

Case 1: Attendant and Child Surgeon

Treat the weak just born baby. Put the baby under incubator before flown to own clinic for further treatment. Heavy rain delayed the schedule. Ambulance broke down in the middle of the road and it is night time. Driver asked them to stand outside as ambulance consists of lots oxygen  If one car ramp the ambulance& man  explosion may occur. Means, asking the doctors leaving the baby as intact to the oxygen. What would do? The attendant is a woman, adopted a child. Of coz' she not willing and likely would protect the baby no matter what. 

Case 2: A doctor handling operations in ER, her husband got an operation also that day

If this happen, who should be treated first? The patient or the husband? She is the specialist for the sickness and have the capability to do the operations. But as the doctor already doing the operations procedure, it takes time. Make the husband could not seeing the wife before entering the OR. The doctor trusted "anak murid" will doing the operation for her husband but choose to secretly backing the identity as she believe "if she don know the patient, she will perform better". Thus, the hospital principal helping to keep the secret and let the "assistant" doing the operations. But the husband died because over bleeding (no blood left). As procedure, the assistant should inform the family members of the death confirmed. Till then, she be informed about the identity. So bad...

So, to tell the sifu? It is hard decision as she in the battle of saving another life. If you tell, she may will rush out leaving the OR, another life be gone. But if you don't, you already break the rules as doctor. But its true as what they said," you better dont tell her as no matter what she still will angry with us as her husband is dead under our knife. She will blame us in the end. Delay 1 hour to inform no much difference". Indeed.

What a life of a doctor.. you just stood in middle..if the patient is your loved ones.

clocked-in

25th Feb 2013

Time just 1 minute passed after 12 midnite and left behind the Day 15 of CNY or Chap Go Meh.. some China place called it "Valentine Day". The end of the day seems no effect to me b'cos everyday still be the same. Odd jobs, same people to "serve", same "servant" task to be done, same place I still stand still no move. Sigh* Its me the problem?

Time flies.. Time clocked-in pass Month of January and nearly approaching the end of February and about to welcoming the Month of March. Is the time flies so soon? or because I stay so long at the same place, no feel time is passing fast? Might be. As I don care much what date is today, when is the time, what next..bla.. bla..Sigh* Is that what life is?

In past chapter of me as job seeker, a friend of a friend recommend me to give a try at Korean beauty cosmetic shop inside a shopping mall. Retail shop means working long hours as the shopping mall open and until the mall is closed for the day. Least of it, working on shift. Then, that day walk-in to be interviewed. Frankly speaking the boss shows how much she meant to find one reliable and trustworthy worker to be assist her workloads especially ones that can take over her current position as "Floor Manager" in reporting to other shareholder.

From the eyes, I can feel how disappointed she was when worker left the unfinished work behind as failed to stand the long working hours. 10am to 10pm. Actually to me, it is indeed long hours but if you got ur responsibility, u wont left without notice. But im not so keen with the job but partially accept for two cause and additional view:

1. Give face to my introducers

2. give myself a try as new field

3. Spend my time rather work at home

4. to reduce arguments

People say " if u really want the job, you should take initiative  your first move so that they can judge our sincerity. I din call up to ask about the offer of 7-days testing trial to test "am I ready to stay over restless week.