wasted my tears for nothing

Though cried so loud,so much tears wasted today, problem still there. work stil need to do. stil stressful, frustrated. i don have the energy to defend. to say no. i hav to do it at last. but why must blame on me when the email cant get thru? or why forget to do so? if i have many thgs to do in hand(all yr command) is that i cant forget even? even with full job task i also not manage to get it done all. what u expect? keep say "u do things slow2,when to finish? time is running out and u still not yet send out the email to let them prepare the presentation,i don understand why u waste time?" i aldy make clear that im not expert in everythg u expect me to do. evn im just beginner in everythg that i blve my capability. the most weakness is time management. evn got stressful matter also i dont know hw to handle. especially when u keep pushing. keep mumbling. if u trust others, i don think they will mot help u.

sh*t on you..

push..pusher.. hated it very much. especially when ppl think u shall able doing it. u think am expertise on this? pissed off. im not yr dream child, don treat me as i am know everything hw to do. i knw runs out of time but u shall give lease time to rest,though u may feel ok wth it. but am not u~ not as u though as strong. i will die if u keep so pushy. i may accidentally uttered bullshit to yr face. am controlling it this moment bcz u are sm1 "powerful" than every1. but i may hit u with bullshit words if am at yr bac. u may know it but this is truth. hw u treat ppl,ppl will treat u back. so don blame if one day i really say so. u may regret for treating me such at first.

am stupid not as u may wished for, so pls don wish i can change to be person u want, u wish. ur wish may not come true. im not yr bull to carry on their nose. only i don have the chance now so u can treat me this way. i hate you for being pushy. to me or to others which don wan to be yr boneka. if we don follow,u will angry. u will small hearted. so how? u think we are yr play-er? shit!!!! i hate my current life. pls take me out b4 i turn crazy.